Let's Start A Riot In Me

2012-02-18T08:57:00.000-08:00

It is that one special thing that you never saw it coming in the beggining,and that one thing you would describe as the best experience you ever had.

2012-02-18T08:49:00.000-08:00

well,put that thought to sleep..
one of that many conspiracy.

why so hard to break the truth to me?
hiding wont do good.
upset? never.
well,bear in mind that i do know bout it.

2012-02-02T03:43:00.000-08:00

im certainly not doing much these days,and i hate it.

in the meantime,i got myself occupied by watching LOTS of dvds,videos,youtube and all.

...and i have a serious confession to make:

im so addicted to watching How I Met Your Mother.it is very funny,should i say the best hilarious tv comedy show ive ever watched.its highly recommendable by me.lol

it keeps me entertained that i forgot to do everything else but this<<<

at this time,ive nothing pretty much exciting going for me..till next time bbhs...

PS.btw ive failed upon one of my resolution this year& that is to be more productive.well,i guess next year resolution is NOT to do any more resolutions.what a waste of time.

coz it is definitely not gonna be met again. just plain talk.

2012-01-14T22:12:00.000-08:00

Abolish all dreams & fantasies...
cause living in the reality is what keeps you sane.

walk the talk

2011-12-29T03:49:00.001-08:00

Somehow,the people I knew never fails to bring me down at times..or might I say most of the times.
I've given up hope on seeing it coming anymore.
Whatever that was said in the past are sometimes not being met and were forgotten by them.
those words remains unfulfilled and the subject might never be revisited again...which brings pointless excitement along the way.
...In keeping any leftover hopes of it being brought up any sooner is under my list of wishful thinking.

2011-12-24T05:00:00.000-08:00

wishes for the upcoming year....

being more pious
confront my fears and not be afraid of the consequences
gaining self confidence esp for public speaking
boost self esteem
speak my mind; find my own voice
be more producitve everyday
be determined with my thoughts,less fickle minded-ness in choices

2011-12-19T05:15:00.000-08:00

some truths may not be heard the way we hoped they would,but they linger long after they've been said...&some truths are the ones you never see coming that falls right into your lap.

2011-12-18T05:51:00.000-08:00

The 5 'WHYS’ of not having fb and tweeeterooo~

I used to consistently get a lot of junk mails inviting me to join social networks in the beginning and i came out with a lot of reasons on not having one. I gotta admit that i lose out on certain ‘oppotunities’to connect with friends but i still see it as unnecessary to have one...yet,i might just change my mind one day...who knows...So here’s the 5 reasons and definitely there's more to it...

And here goes...
~since you know what your friends have eaten, what they are doing at that time and receive consistent numerous updates from them,it creates less of an excitement to meet them in real life...possibly running out of topics to say,knowing what they have been up to lately.

~an image could be copy pasted into another place..imagine what they can do to the photo that places you in it.for all you know,they could hung it up on their walls ,label it somewhere or in someplace else or even use it as a voodoo doll! lol on my wild imaginations running through my head,im just stating the possibilities of it happening..who knows...

~i definitely don’t like to judge people if i don’t know them in real life,never met them or getting to know them personally.the way they post or share their pictures could open up negative assumptions about that person and the best way to avoid it..is not to join.

~its definitely for the world to see.people might disagree or agree with your statement,they might block or unblock you,they might follow or unfollow you, they might friend or unfriend you based on their perceptions about you.i'm definitely afraid to share a single thought that came across my mind..worrying too much on the aftermath.

~i once read that even if you delete certain details that you've published online be it photos or contact details or anything about you..it is still kept somewhere as a storage.that's definitey a scary thought!

2011-12-09T23:17:00.001-08:00

My regular patterns of having absolute short post about whats happening in my life that includes"my blog's dead" and my "i've nothingelse to say here" in this blog shows how boring as a person i am.loleven if i do post,im definitely being vague here and plainly expressed....tilll next time once ive found something interesting to talk on!~

2011-12-08T05:01:00.001-08:00

I wish I have a closet like this<3

2011-12-06T22:55:00.000-08:00

yo supp..
so finally exams is over.
i honestly dont know what i should feel like..coz part of me feels like wat ifs..
and another was glad that the exam is over.

im just hoping for the best.
how stressful it is in school and now
i dont know what i should do after this.
i can't decide for myself.
hmmm...*fingers cross*

2011-10-28T05:51:00.000-07:00

I wish Everything is perfect.
i wish not a single thing can upset me.

i dont know if im able to do this.
coz...the truth is i dont feel like doing it.

i wish i have a ghostwriter..but i dont.

i wish i know every single thing on how to do things without asking or worrying too much ,but i dont't.
doubts and uncertainities are killing me right now and forever.

i can't tell you what it really is,i can only tell you how it feels like.

it feels like...i can't keep calm and carry on doing what i do.

2011-10-11T04:47:00.000-07:00

those readings,i couldnt even explain...its just so hard to undertand and grasp the content when you have no clue what its talking about.and sometimes you want to question..but who are you going to question to..a scientist?those words are so chim.one after another...but i dont have the mood to do it and that if it persists, ill have tormentous consequences but there a lot a I MEAN A LOT...that i just dont find iteresting at all.they really makes use of bizarre words that makes your life a hell lot more worse to ALWAYS Search for MEANINGS.and I HATE it. and i dont know if i could do it anymore.

2011-09-21T09:26:00.000-07:00

working at H&M is great& fun-tastic ..but i know i have to move on with the heaviest of all hearts.lol
truly an enjoyable experience though its such a busy atmosphere to be working there plus its v.tiring.but the good point is.. time REALLY past very quickly for me ...which is a surprise coz ive nvr look at my watch more thn once to check the timing!
im gonna miss it..just like i miss M&S but....
i just gotta look forward and if there are any striking opportunities that comes along like this be it working there again,without a doubt i'll take it.ok,maybe..on second thought it depends on my circumstances.

2011-09-01T06:59:00.000-07:00

pretty much im starting degree @murdoch university.
its unbelievable..
it nvr strike a chord in me bfore that im going thru this path.
and now here i am...taking this bachelor of communications degree
its pretty nerve wrecking when you don't noe what to expect.
its gonna be tough,and who noes if you could ace in whatever you're doing.
by the time i get my degree,i'll be 20...thats's if only i dont repeat anything.

2011-07-27T03:20:00.000-07:00

theres not much stuffs to be talking about and that's the reason behind the 'silence' treatment in my blog.truthfully im not looking for anything or anywhere near excitement and days are filled with boringness and dullness...waiting for what might happen next for me.
its pathetic.
..and i dont have anything much to say here.

2011-07-06T07:42:00.000-07:00

I feel lost
and in need of guidance and a sense of direction to lead me to the right path.
because im afraid of making mistakes and regret it later.
i wish i know what i really want,but i still don't.
time flies and before you know it ...you gotta make the crucial decison.

2011-06-29T06:09:00.000-07:00

Nobody knows me I'm cold
Walk down this road all alone
It's no one's fault but my own
It's the path I've chosen to go
Frozen as snow, I show no emotion whatsoever so
............
................
I've tried in this department but I ain't had no luck with this
It's sucks but it's exactly what I thought it would be
Like tryin to start over
I gotta hole in my heart but some kind of emotional rollercoaster
Something I won't go on so you toy with my emotions hoe it's over
It's like an explosion everytime...

2011-06-05T05:27:00.000-07:00

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
You build up hope but failure's all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go
Let it go

2011-05-23T23:59:00.000-07:00

These feelings I can't shake no more
These feelings running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I'm not coming back around

These feelings I can't take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer
It's getting harder to pretend
And I'm not coming back around again

its pretty effed up to know that someone is overshadowing you constantly..
intentionally or unintentionally.
if you don't have enough faith in me,so be it.
you're f**** up.

2011-05-03T06:31:00.000-07:00

i wish JUNE would come faster...
i need break!

2011-04-28T06:06:00.000-07:00

IT TRULY SUCKS BEING ME

Life's a Pain,everyday...

2011-04-20T04:58:00.001-07:00

im so disturbed.
i wish that incident won't ever happen again in my life
coz it truly makes me feel so terrible and awful.and i don't know what happened that makes them react like that.and i so happened to be there.how unlucky that is.

it happened twice.i just don't get it.its so weird.
these people need to be sent to shutter island or something for treatment.
gosh
hate this feeling.

2011-04-02T02:22:00.000-07:00

I dream because there is no other way I can see it happen.

2011-03-28T08:15:00.000-07:00

I can't believe that i still use plurk.lol-.- i knowww

2011-03-24T10:11:00.000-07:00

Such a short holiday for me. Sigh:/

2011-03-08T02:22:00.000-08:00

I WISH I COULD GO TO MichaelBuble'S CONCERT RIGHT HERE IN SINGAPORE!!!!
=(
SOMEONE PLS BRING ME THERE~
Once in a lifetime opportunity,i would never be able to get it..
well,at least maybe i'll gotta wait till 21.

2011-02-14T04:49:00.000-08:00

how ironic it is to be in the media course.
when..u are too shy, quiet,nervous plus no confident at all.
i hate myself for that.
plus its so embarassing when ur being interview and all you dois to be like ''err...ummm....hmmm...''
i totally have to buck up and stop being that person.

2011-02-10T03:29:00.001-08:00

the darkest hours of my life is sleepless nights.
how do you sleep?tell,me.cheers to dark circles much! coz im so tired with all this crap.
i wish someone would give me an antidote or morphin that when injected,it makes you collapse or faint at that instant second,like a brief knockout. and never will i wake up ever again.bcoz i needed that,badly.i hate it when im stoned and all it seems to me is making me appearing high yet in the right state of mind but tend to talk rubbish at the same time.can someone tell me how to put this misery to an end?

raise your glass,for me!

2011-02-01T21:42:00.001-08:00

2011-01-30T20:38:00.000-08:00

post secondary education
top ten Life Differences;

1)sleeping woes
2)getting on more weight
3)becoming more lazier in everyday aspects
4) more things that bothers my thoughts
5)born to shop
6)level of sanity increases means the craziness decreases
7)ups and downs of almost everything and it begins with'how i wish ...'
8)restless
9)no sense of direction,well..maybe a little
10)less confident in all approaches to existing matters i've had

taking chances

2011-01-27T06:06:00.000-08:00

Seeing how far things go and what my result would turn out for me in 2011,I would never have guessed my luck would be in Millenia Institute.14 points FTW!
second chances is always to make things right and now ive proved it,it might never turn out to be what you wanted in the first place but im pretty convinced with a lot of shots in life,you are on the way to make things better for yourself and all the things around you.

2011-01-18T03:59:00.000-08:00

IM so bored going to sch everyday.god,im gonna get stressed really soon.like real soon.can i just skip and have more hols?coz im so pure lazzzyyy right now to do any things esp when the module is out of my interest.how i wish i can say'i don't give a damn'
but i can't.don't bother.ugh

2011-01-17T07:59:00.000-08:00

I'm falling in love with their dresses!that's freakin hot<3

2011-01-12T03:28:00.000-08:00

Omg.Over 200 bloody courses was offered to me!!!(exact number:266 courses)
hell,yeah man.no kiddin'!
thats like a million times than the courses offered to me back then.(ofc not a million.. but still so much than ive expected.)
seee,the power of math,
changed everything.
crazy enough huh.

well oh well.
but im happy now.

2011-01-11T00:29:00.001-08:00

I want these days to be over.OVER RIGHT NOW! coz it is filled with a whole lot of solitude.
can't stand this ANYMORE.
someone give me a JOB!!

2011

2010-12-31T00:33:00.000-08:00

I can't believe that today marks the end of 2010.
No New Year's resolutions being made coz I don't think I could keep up with 'em.What we can do today,why leave it till tomorrow or in this case,the new year?
furthermore saying it is much more easier than doing it. Every year will always have its ups and downs,no matter what.
Nothing seems to be perfect like the way you want it to be.
It takes us on a very unpredictable journey and you might never know what awaits you.So whatever it is,let's just face it.
Goodbye 2010.

2010-11-26T22:14:00.000-08:00

Living a life full of fantasies seems harder each day when you know everything you wished for will not come true.Day by day,what you hope for seems unreal and unlived...uncertain that it will ever take place in real life.Cause the truth is,its just another fantasy of yours...

2010-11-15T04:16:00.000-08:00

All you need to do is Believe in Yourself and it will accompany you through your darkest times in life.

2010-11-15T04:15:00.000-08:00

Two Awesome Actors.Makes a Great Partnership.

2010-11-11T05:57:00.000-08:00

I missed all the times in secondary school,all those 4 years and theres not a single thing that i dont like about it during those times. i called it the golden years of my life.its the best amazing wonderful exciting times that ive ever had in my whole life, coz its never like now.coz now its different.its not the same like last time.if i ever had a chance to go back even for one more year with the same group of people ive met,same schoolmates,same teachers ..i would have done that.but now i just gotta move on.

2010-11-05T06:59:00.000-07:00

Simpler of times... when windows were something you look out of and apple was something that grew on a tree and the wii was something you took on a tree.

2010-11-02T20:28:00.000-07:00

I want to be hidden by a baboon mask but nobody gives a damn to what i said.that's coz they don't take it seriously.wat i wanted is just for people(i could be directing at one or a few more others) to respect my wish on putting a masquerade figure coz i hate it when people see it.(if you noe wat 'it' means..)All im just saying is if you know that i hate it,you wouldnt do it,trust me.you gotta respect their wish.if something appears to be ok to you doesn't mean its ok with me.
because of all these things im so paranoid.and im SICK OF IT already.

2010-10-29T23:42:00.000-07:00

I've been starting on a new chapter in my studies which is public relations and journalism.im ok with it though despite difficult setbacks especially on writing for newspaper articles.Its just so bad.I really dont have any experience on it,but i do tried at least.''you do have the 'nicest' handwriting of them all'' my faci said,which is so true.i scribbled almost every word i wrote coz i don think its a perfect piece compared to anyone else's.i really need to read up or not...im dead.coz i noe im not improving in any of those articles i wrote about.no good words.. nothing,that explains the lack of vocab i have.
On another note,im so GLAD that my time with math is over.its quite a Just an OK paper for me which i really do hope to pass.*pleading*
ok thats all for now,i guess.

2010-10-09T03:43:00.000-07:00

One glance,he looked like he belongs in the Calvin Klein ad.
his gorgeous eyes makes him such a pure eyecandy.
P.S why oh why must I have celebrity infatuation thats never ending.If only I can meet them personally one day... Ok,bfore I start dreaming again,I gotta stop.
Wish they were here,right beside me to look in their eyes& be lost in it all day long...
If only thats happening, I would be on cloud nine.

2010-09-27T01:20:00.000-07:00

Oh great.
Ive something coming my way..and i totally bluntly ignored it.
I should havew answered
the phone..
evergreen/admiralty pric sch ‘s calling me,and i never did answer it coz really,im a late riser.
and there goes my dosh..down the drain.tsk.
Its the perfect chance and i nvr grasp it.
Tell me,where im gonna get that chance
Ever again
Hopefully they would call..

2010-09-26T07:41:00.000-07:00

Its not always easy to see someone's true colours.Sometimes,you must look beneath the masculine veneer to find that fragile ego.You must ignore the sparkle of a jewel to know you're looking at a fake.You must bring the truth out of the shadow to see the beauty of its smile.Yes...people hide their true nature from us everyday and sadly,we only find out when its too late.

2010-09-26T00:29:00.000-07:00

Finally,im done with my CFS.
Yup,I hope these last two modules that im over with,would pass.ive to cross both of my fingers really tightly.So, this few days until sch reopens,im trying to make math works with me.luckily i don’t have to try that hard.Somehow, my brain’s working.Exactly one more month&its very surreal looking at how fast time flies.On another note,im hooked up with personal taste.ive never thought that i would watch, until that one day ive seen it and it made me stick to it until the very last..
Ps*when im done with the last book of vampire diaries series,i would definitely want a grab of sophie kinsella’s latest book. the minnie shopaholic..aaarh..so gonna get that!

2010-09-05T06:45:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh. I have 3 big exams coming up in Sept and Oct.I.have.to.stop.Dreaming

2010-09-03T06:11:00.000-07:00

stop giving me stupid msges and flodding my inbox will ya?
stupid,riduculous msges about makinng money..who needs that?!
fyou seriously.

2010-08-25T08:39:00.000-07:00

people talk about getting fat nowadays.i guess we're all getting fatter coz we're all growing up.and one day,we will stop at a certain weight in time to come... and it all doesnt matter to us anymore.

2010-08-20T07:07:00.000-07:00

I am so pressured right now.i kept sidetracking at other websites instead of focussing on my assignments.and what's not..i haven't done my tuition's hw yet coz i kept delaying it.talk about getting all energized up and ready to start and complete all these things.my heart and my mind will never be in peace until i completed it.
laptop's such a distraction,really.damn you chef.
ps* I shouldn't watch 90210.that midnight express show is keeping me up all night.zzzz.but that matt latner makes me too:(

Random

2010-08-08T07:42:00.000-07:00

so the bathroom scale reads..50.5 kg.
oh god,im just gonna kill myself.
wat did i eat make me this fat?!
my guess is, lack of exercise and just lack of doing physical activities.
i miss doing PE& now..look, im getting fatter.
why they just can't have pe lessons?
i really need it.
ugh.sometimes i dont care.but i still do. sometimes,I just wonder,does it really matter to me?..idk

LOL

2010-08-07T20:35:00.000-07:00

i wish they had that in place.I will definitely go watch it;D

2010-08-06T01:42:00.000-07:00

2010-08-03T05:30:00.000-07:00

I swear i can sleep soundly during the accounting& management lessons.
nothing really stores in my head.
its fxcking boring..those words they say pass me like a breeze through my ears.
easy come,easy go.soon,ill get more worried about it...when it comes to assignment and exam coz im not paying much attention .its just not my thing.hais.
my mind is always doing its job,building sandcastles in the air...&thats something to worry about.
btw,fxck plurk laa.everytime,i tried to get in,theres always this stupid connection diagnose problem thingy.watsup with it man?!if i cant plurk,its fxcking annoying.damn

2010-07-17T07:45:00.000-07:00

I wish i had fraternal twins.She could be my undercover.
so i could skip sch while the other one goes.
we're gonna get mistaken for the other easily.

Maybe we could even be partners in crime;D

2010-07-15T06:59:00.000-07:00

So what are you going to do if every bad things you've said is true?
What are you going to do,personally?
Are you going to stop fighting and swim with the sharks?
There's no excuse for giving up,just because it looks like we're going to lose.
We have to try-because the other choice is to surrender.

2010-07-10T05:55:00.000-07:00

i started to freak out at the thought of everything.
you won't understand.
im not that prepared
not yet.
no twice the mistake,its not gonna happen.don't let it be.
do something.change it to be the other way round,prove it.
have faith.

how not to spend?

2010-07-08T23:58:00.000-07:00

The guilty pleasure of spending has to end.
I have to refrain myself from going to stores,though there always comes a time where you're thinking of making purchases or not.it has to end rightaway.
so,say 'no' to shopping malls,alrite?!
ive nvr been quite adjusted to the word'shopaholic' myself back then,
and now, i might just call myself that.
its highly ironic,to tell someone not to,when you're doing it urself.
and after that i kept blaming myself for some stupid purchases ive made.
lucky me,i dont have any credit card,or i might just end up with debts.
im nothing like rebecca bloomwood.hah!if you don't noe what im talking about,read the book,for all you'll noe, u might just end up like her

2010-06-25T01:38:00.001-07:00

Its been a few days since the last time i updated.
a lot of things goin thru in my mind.
1)i need a job.i don't noe what one month can do without it.and i need it fast!
2)i wanna go out with my mates.been a long time=( miss them muchass~
3)movies!!wat else~oh yes,i wanna watch eclipse:D
4)i just wanna have a lot of clothes..but me ,gotta tink abt my tuition fees.and i dn tink i have the savings enuff to cover it up, so that goes to point no 1.
5)im freakin scared of my results.afraid of remoduling*touch wood*
6) did i tell you,i truly love andy samberg!!! hah.*smilleee*

lucky no.13

2010-06-13T01:00:00.000-07:00

happy birhday to Aaron Johnson who turned 20,
Mary kate& Ashley Olsen who turned 24 and
Chris Evans who turned 29..
today..
and lastly me,who just turned 17(;

2010-06-11T23:35:00.000-07:00

yesterday was the bombzz!!
went out with them to plaza sing...all the eight of us:))
went to catch the karate kid and my ticket&popcorn was sponsored by the three of them..ofcourse im special.*wink-wink*
i have to say the movie was OK ..(that has always been my short&simlple response)
the ending was quite predictable,i guess.i prefer watching an action movie to kung fu stuffs since i dont really relate to that.
after all that, we went to an indonesian restaurant..since they reserved it.
and comes to the sweetest part of my life..
where after we've all finished eating,and suddenly out of nowhere..there's a small cutest strawberry cake appears,coming my way and they began chanting happy birthday to me.like trulyy unbelievable.the candle and stuff.i don noe what kind of stupid wish ive made.that's really thoughtful.
thank you very very much to them for the best day ever.

2010-06-07T23:04:00.000-07:00

Say Goodbye to my super long thick hair..im gonna cut it awayyy!
feel like having a dark brown colouration to my hairr.Hmmm..

Cause here we go again..and again.

2010-05-27T08:34:00.000-07:00

sszzuppp!*while holding a bottle of beer,mixing it with a lil vodka*

ive not really plug into blogging for a looonnng time.well,it feels like a really long time,but truth is,it's not that long.hah.
well,lets go on..
definitely i have a lot to tell ya on my new life story in sch of management.
its really completely different from secondary.juz reminds me of how much ive missed those days.*sigh*
well there are the few changes that i kinda get adjusted to that..or maybe not on second thought but well,here goes:

1)i barely eat at all during sch.i mean its better to save than to eat if it's only 3 hrs of sch.u can always starve until you get back home..u noe wat im saying...
(but there are times where i have lessons for the whole day..and still i miraculously survived)idk how odd that sounds.

2)im always having conversations in english.god noes why.i gotta think about what i have to say first.like knock-knock where's my mly frens?

3)nobody calls me chef.haha.{chef.no more} :( (u cn't imagine wat they called me..rofl.first time in my life i gotta adapt with that name.tsk.)

4)they really treat u like real adult..its a real adult world ppl.

5)im not being me.the same old me when im there.im more of a listener.weird much?yes,i am.

6)im staying sane all time.where's the crazies,man?

oh well,im getting dizzier right now.

goodniteeszzz

2010-04-14T04:38:00.000-07:00

hey ya..wassup homies,
i decided to plug off my blog for now.
well,its gonna be buried in my graveyard just behind my house. if you miss it,you are welcome to visit the funeral anytime.
and when the right time comes,ill go dig it up bck and recover the bones to my blog..
& start bloggin.so till thn..its dead,and when halloween comes,it will be alive once more.
alrite thn,Rest in peace&goodbye!~

2010-04-10T21:44:00.000-07:00

Im sorry for the lack of updates coz im not pluggin into blog these days.
im gonna exclude abt hows my life/ part...coz its always been you noe,the same.

Sch's starting soon and i dunno wat to expect though coz its something new,yeah.well,the bad part is i can't travel by bus to my sch animore..which is something im used to during sec but.now i have to get use to train ..hell,yeah its a long journey,and wat i didn't like about it..is that its always packed.ALWAYS

oh,god wats with this mosquito bites...im sooo itchy.
alrite where was i..oh,right,i just have to get used to it huh.i still rmbr the times i didn't ya noe..it starts with a b word. when goin to sch.u see,it all started when i was in sec 2 or 3,that's where i stop being a hygienic person.i don't noe as to why. maybe bcoz of the cold water running,thats wat im guessing.
So i began to adopt this daily ritual practice.idk if i should discontinue or continue this habit..well,we'll see.there was this time when i didn't bath during camp and ppl noticed it,hah!
rest assured,i'll spray perfume all over me.
alrite that's it for now...till the next post.
im chef,goodbye.

2010-03-31T04:06:00.000-07:00

I hate it when I don't get things organize in life

2010-03-20T04:40:00.000-07:00

We all need somebody that we can lean onwhen you wake up look around and see that your dreams gone when the earth quakes we'll help you make it through the storm when the floor breaks a magic carpet to stand on.we are the World united by love so strong when the radio isn't on you can hear the songs a guided light on the dark road your walking ona sign post to find the dreams you thought was gone someone to help you move the obstacles you stumbled on someone to help you rebuild after the rubble's gone.we are the World connected by a common bond Love the whole planet sing it along

2010-03-17T01:09:00.000-07:00

Well, i just wanna say this;that i absolutely lived with no regrets.u noe..now i dont wanna brag about this matter anymore,i want it to end.to free my mind off it.i wanna to be clear about it;that when one has tried his or her best in whatever they do...they shouldn't worry about what are the outcomes;what turns out to be.just take it for good or for worse.people's comments,my comments and opinions..has murdered me much,but i've learnt to take nothing out of it.its only about how you're seeing it in your own perspective that it does matter the most...(well at least to me)it does hurt seeing all these things happening,like its revolving around you 24/7.sometimes its really hard to come out...a little stronger than before.

2010-03-07T03:00:00.000-08:00

If ur plane fell out off the sky,who would you call with your last goodbye
should be so careful who we live out of our lives,so when we long for absolution,there'll be no one on the line.

yeah,we gotta start...

2010-03-02T04:41:00.000-08:00

The Gorgeous Yana

yo sup~

so basically,those past two days i went out to return my uniform and my locker key.im soo gonna miss all those amazing people ive met @the centrepoint's Marks&Spencer.i mean all of them,really.they are just so awesome.AWESOME,friendly,superb,

kind,sweet. i don't know what else to say coz im alreadymissing that place.the atmosphere's nt that lively animore..wonder why?coz im gone now=P lol.

i got sooo many presents frm my staffs @ ladieswear just by working a mth there.and ALL OF THEM CONTAINS CHOCOLATES.IM NOT KIDDING.from milk chocolate coated digestive biscuits to extremely chocolatey milk chocolate rounds...eclairs assortment choc to toblerone.. to chocolate cream caramel wafers,chocolate buttons,easter chocolate egg.etc.it will make me sick eating all those.nevertheless..its so sweet of them;)

in return,i gave them handmade cards.hopefully they'll like it,yea.

afthat,went out with liyana & her friend to give the timesheet bck and went roaming.i just wanna get my hands on things.mayb nxt time aite..get ma pay first.

alritess...

oh yah,before i forget,happy 17th birthday to my bf, Siti Faridah!

ill give ur present soon alrite.

after a decade of knowing her,shes still the girl that i noe of (:

alrite thn ..au revoir to all.

2010-02-27T21:41:00.000-08:00

I felt so attached to my workplace that i didn't wanna let it go...
those moments are the best i've had.

2010-02-23T23:02:00.000-08:00

i wanted to eat all those milk choc digestive biscuits ..for one last time,before i go off...& say my one last goodbye.

2010-02-19T05:57:00.000-08:00

2010-02-04T19:35:00.000-08:00

~ guess who's this guy..he's my boyfriend bbh!

well,life's pretty normal

My legs are about to give way and im always working under a huge pile of clothes almost everyday.it becomes increasingly tiring these days.

but i just have to do it...until the month ends for at least,i guess.

truth is,boredness really drives me to work and even so

it makes me more of a no life situation like those past two

months that ive been hooking up at home...its just the same here ya know.

wake up the nxt morning-getting ready to work-reach home at almost midnight-and get ready

for the nxt day's work.its called the life cyle pattern of chefika's daily life.

so that's about it.

2010-02-02T23:12:00.000-08:00

Sorry for the inactiveness.updating soon(;

2010-01-20T02:59:00.000-08:00

All around me are familiar faces Worn out places, worn out faces Bright and early for the daily races Going nowhere, going nowhere And the tears are filling up their glasses No expression, no expression Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow No tomorrow, no tomorrow And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very very Mad world, mad world....

2010-01-06T00:00:00.000-08:00

..And the day when you wake up,the moment of truth will be revealed.
even if you try hard to prolong ur pace towards knowing it,it wouldn't help much.
& all of those roller coaster ride of emotions.. will be deeply felt
..coz it determines the future.
nothing else,but the future.

2010-01-04T05:18:00.000-08:00

ooohhh..yea,its been a great time..going to xcape.on a scale to ten,i would definitely give a 7 since some of the fun adventures are missing there.went viking and i practically screammmed at the top of my lungs,it feels like non-stop screaming and im sure the person beside me,during that viking has turned deaf.but u have to understand ,i was just training my vocal chord(:at that point of time,there were so many ppl on board &i totally turned red...reminds me of the boat thing watever that name is..spraying water at each other and wats more embarassing was i couldn't return it to its position after that.i just think that i,should be laughed at..even 5 yr old can do that huh.lol.and i like that air- massaging thing as well..its so cooling..and & when it comes to driving,its such a bumpy ride.its like vibrating through me all the time i was on the road..to sum it up,there are so much more places we went to visit like the night house..those ghosts ain't scary enuff.and the 2nd time round,children practically pulling our clothes due to their own fear.i loved that wet &wild ride as well.i tink thats the most number of times we're on board.
..&thats where we ended our day.(:

2010-01-02T04:45:00.000-08:00

Cinematic year of 2oo9

top 3 films i love the most goes to:
-the curious case of benjamin button
-drag me to hell
-i love you,MAN
see it to believe it
...and see it again :D

3 movies i hated the most goes to:
-jangan tegur
-new moon
-christmas carol
see it to believe it..
and don't bother seeing it again.

2009-12-28T21:23:00.000-08:00

a D-I-M Quizzie quiz ^^

Last read:The Catalpa Tree.two thumbs up=)

Last cd:pink panther 2~!keeps me rofl all the way.

Celebrity dream date:err..its a long list.. but whats more exciting than having a fling with my idol,AS♥.wee~

Dream car:Volkswagen.Das Auto.I just keep changing my mind about cars...if only i can own all of them...*dreamin again*~

Recently watched programme:Dish With Vivien.but now its all coming to an end.

Inspires me the most:just gotta be Beatrice,u noe.*winking*

Whats on your mind:ooh,how to get rid of pimple perhaps?

The faraway country u have been to:UAE.wee~the longest stay ever.♥

Dream job:to think of it,i would wanna be an editor of a magazine so as ...to meet all those hollywoddie celebs..gonna be so much more than just fun.gotta get all their autographs&paste it on the wall!

Language u wanna expand on:Spanish.reminds me of wilma's departure.lol

The greatest of all quote u came across:'money is never a big motivation for me,except as a way to keep score.the real excitement is playing the game.'

2009-12-22T02:37:00.000-08:00

i have no absolute idea where things are heading off for me.

2009-12-20T03:09:00.000-08:00

If I were a boy, even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning and throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys, and chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted and I'd never get confronted for it
Cause they stick up for me
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy, I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken so they think that I was sleeping alone
I'd put myself first and make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she'd be faithful, waiting for me to come home
To come home
If I were a boy
I think I could understand, oh-oh-oohh-oh
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake, think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You got it wrong
But you're just a boy
And you don't understand (yea, you don't understand, oh!)
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Because you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

2009-12-19T00:00:00.000-08:00

Im reminded of an act in a cinema by an old,frail looking figure sitting beside me...a few days ago..

funny but yet it disgusted me by her doings.

sitting beside me,watching a movie she had her feet high up on the front chair,afterwards she was constantly talking to herself&making numerous tweeting sound.she just can't stop.makes me feel her existence now& then.she even yawned loudly& slept halfway thru and the next thing she did surprised me.she was snoring!?i can't believe it.it was my first encounter by such pple.

the nxt thing was such a relief,she was awakened by the sound effect i guess, and left in a haste even bfore it ended.i couldn't see the point why she was there at the first place.it doesn't makes sense at all.

its such a wonderful experience to be in that situation,i must really thank her for that.

2009-12-09T21:50:00.000-08:00

'now that child'he said,'reminds me of something our sages taught.when a baby comes into the world,its hands are clenched right?like this?
he made a fist.
'why? because a baby,not knowing any better wants to grab everything ,to say the whole world is mine.'
'but when an old person dies.how does he do so,with his hands open.why?because he has learned the lesson'
'what lesson?' i asked
he stretched open his empty fingers
'we can take nothing with us'.
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2009-12-09T00:56:00.000-08:00

Things can be good or evil,depending on what,free will,we do with them.
speech can be a bless or a curse.
money can save or destroy.
science can kill or heal
even nature can work for you or against you;fire can warm or burn,water can sustain life or flood it away...

2009-12-07T23:06:00.000-08:00

After watching the finale,it turns out meghan and cheyne won the race.im pretty absolutely convinced that they're gonna win even without watching the last episode.im just thinking that most of the races they had done,they had their luck on their side and of course their skills equipped in them.(they had came in first several times)
&also at the same time,i really wanted sam and dan to win badly..they came very close.well all of these episodes of AR kept me in suspense the whole time i was watching it,hoping that my fave team wont get kicked out.
and now my all-time fave tv programme has come to an end.*sigh*
..say..bye!

psst..i cnt belive sam and dan are gays.really.good looking but gays.=(

2009-12-01T01:19:00.000-08:00

tell me what i'm going to do..
for tmrw?

..for the rest of the days?

'the biggest mistake in life is doing nothing'
is dreaming part of it?

following the same old routine.wats not to dislike?

2009-11-23T21:44:00.000-08:00

I walk alone inside these walls and it's not easy being me
It seems like everytime I escape there's another following
Being prone and, yeah they're coming
I can feel them shooting me, without asking
Lights are flashing but I guess that
It's what I've become, let me live as who I am
Never wanted nothing, but you don't let me breathe as who I am
I've just begun, I've just begun, I've just begun to find my way
I've just begun, I've just begun, I've just begun to find my way
In the chase I know I’m wanted, hey look I’m no victim
It’d be nice to make some mistakes without observations
Or opinions, of distortions
Deceiving what you’re believing
It’s a shame that all these blessings can be a curse
It's what I've become, let me live as who I am
Never wanted nothing, but you don't let me breathe as who I am
I've just begun, I've just begun, I've just begun to find my way
I've just begun, I've just begun, I've just begun to find my way
There's not a pill to take to save me from this heartache
But I have no regrets I'm hoping for a better day
There's not a pill to take to save me from this heartache
But I have no regrets I'm hoping for a better day
It's what I've become, let me live as who I am
Never wanted nothing, but you don't let me breath as who I am
It's what I've become, let me live as who I am
Never wanted nothing, but you don't let me breath as who I am
I've just begun, I've just begun
I've just begun to find my way...
I've just begun, I've just begun
I've just begun to find my way...

2009-11-23T21:07:00.000-08:00

if its not bcoz of carol hannah's sickness,she may have won..trust me.i sort of like her..very much indeed.*wink*

i wonder why im always talking abt PR..nvr been so obsessed with it before..

maybe bcoz of logan..&carol.

they had such a deep lasting impression & impact on me.

looking forward to the nxt season.its nt gonna start any sooner.hopefully,no more biotches in the nxt PR.

alright thn,gonna stop talking abt it.

moving on,

i dn wanna have any working experiences at all at this point of time.

coz i juz love rotting at home..its so much better.weird huh.

but thats me, i guess.

2009-11-02T19:03:00.000-08:00

project runaway season 6
logan neitzel's out.he's a pure eyecandy ya noe..and still is out.
he's the reason i keep watching..but now he's out,i dn tink i wanna watch..maybe im gonna boycott this show,maybe not..
coz there's still carol hannah..talking about the sweety cuty girl.
althea and irina are bitches and both should have gone out a long time ago.
well we don't judge according to their attitude...but basically there are talented thats wat keep them going in this competition.they may be good designers but
their attitude will not let them go far.. watever it is
SO NOW IM ROOTING FOR CAROL HANNAH!yeah!
am glad that christopher is out too.
[down to top three]

2009-10-13T23:43:00.000-07:00

i totally forgot abt my dearest idol birthday that fall on october the 3rd..
so here's wishing her a happy 25th birthday..
after all these 5 yrs of having a great admiration towards her...and still am.
and she's
....ASHLEE SIMPSON!
i still remember her first song that i listened to.
the lyrics are still stuck in my memory.
maybe i'm still her die hard fan of hers.
no reason as to why.
so that's all folks..
o lvls coming soon..so i won't blog any more till the end of the papers.
wish all those whos taking the pprs to do their best..
and a note to self''go all out chefika!!''
gosh.i sound so ridiculuous and crazy .well
allrite then peepos.i hope i can do all my pprs well and make sure i don't screw up on any..
i got to get rid of my panicky feeling..and redeem my level of self confidence bck.
thinking about it..
im only left with one more week.
thn..like the others said it will be days..and then hours and then seconds!!
alrite then
signing off,muah#8&^$%@ _l_
(:

2009-10-09T06:41:00.000-07:00

im dissapointed with some people who couldn't care less about their studies..the fact that o lvl's coming in two more weeks.
i don't get it..with the attitude.
don't they want to make their mark?
afterall..their future is in their hands.

i hate this damn computer..feels like hammering it to teach it a lesson not to lag... and not to turn it off by itself without my permission.
not once but it felt like countless of time..switching bck again..knowing that by any chance it would shut down by itself.

2009-10-05T03:50:00.000-07:00

have a little faith.

2009-09-29T23:50:00.000-07:00

Hiding behind that mask
wasn't life all grey?
you shut out the world with that mask.
tell me,
how many dreams did u slay?
what could have been,
is now just a dream.

Take off that mask,
throw it away,
bury it deep...
deep in your past.
afterall,a mask is but a mask.

2009-09-26T23:22:00.000-07:00

*only one more mth left*towards ordinary level.
there are still certain uncertainties that im gonna clarify soon.
another 2 more weeks to the end of school.
and another 1 more month plus left to the end of o-lvl.
needa working really hard these days.
and noe what..i miss books..and newspapers have been a substitution for it..
i like the voices section of today's papper..coz it always relate to the journalists point of views in their life..
i have not been reading much..rarely have enufftime huh.
guess some days im talking nonsensical sometimes...

2009-09-25T08:14:00.000-07:00

everyone has equal opportunities to suceed even though some may be born cleverer than others.

2009-09-18T04:32:00.000-07:00

the whole room is spinning around me ..again.
once im up,i started to feel giddy..i wonder why
so i spent most of the time lying in bed.
which doesn't help me at all...in any way.
if this still persists,i might just need a doc=(

i swear i did not take any vodka or brandy.
sigh.

2009-09-11T02:41:00.000-07:00

yusuke(; yamamota

for the past few weeks,i guess i need more sleep than often.
i think im under some kind of a sleeping spell.
i dn understand...what cn really make me stay awake?
its not the best time for me to doze off.. in times like these
but i couldn't help it.